murphy still lives II

and just when you thought that all that could possibly go wrong already went wrong, something else has to go even more wrong.

one of the most taxing weeks of my life. ever. when i typed the below entry, 'whatever that could go wrong, went wrong.' little did i realize that there were still plenty many other things that were going to go wrong. so i'm going to hold the horses (quite literally) with bated breath until the fat lady sings.

i admit that there were times where i just wanted to hide under my blanket and not deal with all the frustrations anymore. but on the bright side, such is what makes life more interesting. i do admit that the challenges can bring you to a certain high (without the stress lines please, thanks.) and whatever that can't kill you will only make you stronger. i guess in life, it only gets tougher. so i'll just suck it in and deal with it. because i know i can.

looking back, the past few months were taxing, but the year ahead looks set to be even more so. and so often i am so caught up in my work that everything just goes past me without even me realizing that it did. and yes, i do admit that being busy is no longer a valid excuse to neglect your surroundings, and more importantly people that are important to you.

having said that, i do enjoy each and every moment of it as it comes. even in the stress and hectic of it all, i do take the time, take a deep breath, look around me and marvel at the magnitude of things around me.

i feel frustrated, yet amused at the things that can happen in my daily life. it is not one that every other tom dick or harry can experience.

i get the satisfaction, from sealing yet another contract, and i know that the credit is not mine to take, but for all to share.

i get the high from seeing a job well-done, as the fat lady gets towed out and takes to the skies. the pride and joy that everyone shares bring a new high to the spirits around all of us.

i look out of my airplane window and see the sand dunes and the snowy-capped alps. i stand atop and look down on the various city skylines, i stand grounded on the level desert sand and look up at the constellation of stars in the sky. can i not be awed?

can i not marvel at the fact that i wake up in bahrain one day, tokyo the next, and the next thing i know i am in lisbon?

and i was just thinking on the whole, how fortunate i really am to have such opportunities in life.

sometimes though, the magnitude of which does get into one's head, that you transcend the standards which you deem fit for your work life, into your personal life. but it is good to have loved ones around you to keep you grounded, to remind you not to let the larger-than-life world that you are living in get to you. in a sense, it is all borrowed, and for me, i will just enjoy each and every moment of everything, so that at the end of the day, i can say to myself, it was all good while it lasted.

the other day, i was in malaysia with the bf and extended family, and at some point in the trip, we were strolling through the rural area, and the bf said, good to buy a house and just live life at the slow pace. and i agreed, much to his surprise. he said, that means no more SK-II you know? and i was amused. because the reason why i use SK-II is because i do not have the luxury to sleep and eat well to maintain a good complexion, not because i enjoy using such expensive products.

i'm not sure if you get the point of my story above. but i do. and that is what keeps me grounded to reality.

anyway, on a lighter note, the bf and i have booked our accommodation at phuket! we've decided against the very commercialized (or so we hear) patong area, and decided to stay where there is a private beach and raving reviews. i've already decided on my selection of books to catch up on my reading, and planned out a very relaxing and rejuvenating experience! so now, crossing our fingers that it will be good! i've been having dreams about going on holiday, which means that it is too damn long since i went for one!

okay i'm off to enjoy my saturday afternoon. i'm out!